On December 17th, 2014 I was served with a restraining order from my wife whom lived in our house some 400 miles away from me in Central Oregon, while I lived temporarily in Renton, Washington.  She had "Moved On" as she relayed to me through others.  For the previous 8 months I had returned to my home in Central Oregon from where I worked in Washington.  It was neither easy, nor enjoyable.....The having to work so far from home that is.  After several years with the State Of Oregon, I took what I deemed would be a less stressful, more rewarding position in a large company.  The position I accepted required that I live and work in Washington until such time that an opportunity to return home, to Central Oregon presented itself.  The last time I returned home before December 17th 2014 had been at Labor Day weekend, some three months before.  My kids were starting another year of school and having been informed that it was likely that I would be able to be home for Christmas, I refrained from returning to my home before, saving every cent I could so as to bring all the joy I could to my family' Christmas holiday.   I arrived back in Central Oregon with my truck full of my possessions and no home to go to.  I found a storage facility and stored most of my goods there.  Central Oregon had already seen both freezing temperatures and snows.  Making what preparations I could considering what I was suffering, I winter camped in the Oregon Cascades some 12 miles out of Sisters, Oregon.  I was alone, no family, no kids, no wife, no love, no warmth, and no idea why she had filed anything against me,  While I am a fairly big guy, I am not, nor have I ever been a violent one.  I love my wife with all my heart.  I admire her talents, intelligence, and love for our children.  I love my children more than life.  I fight every day to continue living.  On January 13th, 2015, after requesting a challenge to the restraining order, I was informed by Judge Walter R. Miller that as I was "Homeless" at the time (I was hoping to get to return to my home with my family) and that "Homeless people are unstable, and thus undeserving of having the right to either see or be with their children" - His Words.  I returned to my camp in the woods, deep in depression and misery.  On February 14, 2015 I attempted to end things, permanently.  I, either because of subconscious error or other misfire, attempted to eat a bullet.  The weapon jammed, a weapon that is celebrated for this trait being such a rarity.  I cried almost the entire night, dysfunctional to say the least.  I violated the restraining order on two occasions.  First, in late January/early February my kids asked if I would order pizza for them.  When I did it was "returned" by my wife (I had ordered Pizza for both my kids and my wife along with other items totaling nearly $75.)  My wife told the delivery person she didn't want it and then proceeded to call the police.  I was arrested upon the request of an Officer Chambers with the Redmond Police Department while I was at work in Bend.  I served just over three full days before being released.  I returned to the woods, working in Bend 25-35 hours a week meanwhile, but still not having enough money to afford an apartment home, let alone a house.  In April I sent my wife and kids Easter cards and $$, begging her to drop these orders.  Again she informed me of what I later was informed was her new boyfriend, Officer Chambers of the Redmond Police Dept. to have me arrested because I was attempting to "contact her".  The Redmond DMV denies anything they do, but relationships between officers and the public they serve whom are residents in the city they work in is "supposedly" forbidden.  Police not abusing your rights is "supposedly" forbidden too so who's to say what rules and laws cops ever follow..Don't ask Captain Brian McNaughton...He'll contact your family and friends to share his attitudes and opinions with them even when they live in other states... (She, my wife Becky-Yes, we are still married as of July 15, 2017 because divorce would potentially cause her to lose "power" over her denial of my seeing my children;  works at the Redmond Department Of Motor Vehicles-I could have just gone their but she told me that her boss, Terrie Anderson-"Customer Service Manager" of the Bend DMV at the time, would have me arrested for going to any DMV ever again in Oregon)   I again went to jail, this time for 9 days.  After being released from jail, I immediately made to leave the state where my kids had been kept captive because of the self-righteous, egotistical, un-ethical decision of a circuit court judge, Walter R. Miller.  He decided that homeless people are bad, unstable, and undeserving of both human rights and rights to see their own children.  Now nearly 30 months later, my children have turned their confusion about what their mother did to me to hate of their father;; a father whom would never harm them in any way ever, hoping I would die and officer Chambers wishes would be granted if I did.   I only want the rights to see my children on a regular basis, to live near to them in Oregon in case of need on their behalf or that of their mother.  To provide for them as best as I can and work to becoming a better person and supporting my children in every way a good father can and should.  I have nothing without them and my life is meaningless.  I have not returned to Central Oregon for fear of Officer Chambers, Captain McNaughton, and other law enforcement thugs like them, for fear of being arrested or worse again, shot by these "cops", and/or for fear Judge Miller or another would once again decide that Fathers Rights are not important enough to allow them the opportunities to be with their children.  Please, Let me see and be with my children, let me return to Oregon so as to be available to them and have a new life, without my wife as she desires but with my children..Otherwise my death is all that is left for me to face, for nothing living matters without my children being an active part of my life.  To Lily & Walker, I ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND LOVED YOU...BEING TAKEN FROM ME BY YOUR MOTHER, WAS TAKING MY HEART & SOUL FROM ME......Sincerely Thomas Learnihan    Ranger6409@gmail.com